Paying It Forward

Hi everyone!

How are you today?

I hope you have been getting some rest to recharge for a new week.

If you don’t mind, I would like to share a little bit about paying it forward.

To put it in its simplest form, paying it forward refers to doing a good deed to someone for a kindness that someone else has done (or will do) to you.  It’s about giving back to the community or those in need.

After I was hired for my current permanent job in 2014, I made it my personal goal to pay it forward in a manner close to my heart.

I have always been passionate about defending children’s rights, especially their rights in receiving education in addition to basic daily necessities.  Children are our future and are worth the investment of our time, energy, and money.  And so, I found out about child sponsorship through  World Vision Malaysia.

Contributions through World Vision are pooled in a shared fund to be used in long-term development programmes targeted towards a specific community’s well-being and livelihood.  

The development programmes focus on the following:

- Clean water and sanitation 

- Healthcare

- Food and agriculture 

- Education 

- Economic development 

My monthly contributions to World Vision Malaysia are currently used for the below projects:

- Education fund

- Child sponsor (John Rhey, Philippines)

- Child sponsor (Thi Luu, Vietnam)

- Child sponsor (Tanos Abbas, Lebanon)

As a child sponsor, I receive annual reports on how my children and their community are doing.  I also receive letters and cards (and beautiful drawings!) from my children.

Hearing about how my children are progressing and what they aspire to become gives me pure joy and confidence that we are getting ready for the future no matter where we are.

In addition to child sponsorship through World Vision, I am also a supporter of other non-profit organisations such as UNICEF, WWF, NKF, and SPCA.

How about you?

How do you prefer to pay it forward? 💜

Beauty Pageant: Yay or Nay

How’s 2021 treating you so far?

I hope your drive to get through this new year is as high as it can be.  Great things will happen, and let’s claim that!

I was browsing through my photo gallery to archive older photos.  As I was mindlessly doing that, I paused at the sight of a few photos taken over 4 years ago.  Those were the photos from a beauty pageant that I took part in years ago.

I wonder how my pageant sisters and moms are doing now.  I hope they’re all having the best life they can get, each excelling in her own niche.

If you asked me today, whether or not I would join another pageant if given the opportunity, I would say no.  The main reason would be because at the age and career stage that I’m in right now, I don’t think it’s a good idea to embark into a commitment as significant as a pageant.  

Yes!  It is a commitment.  And yes!  It has its significance and contributions to the community.

Having said that, I would like to take this opportunity to emphasise that a beauty pageant deserves more respect and attention than most of you are giving it.  Some people tend to look down on pageant participants and supporters, which I personally think is unfair and needs to stop.  I can’t completely blame anyone for this, though, since I know this is mainly contributed by the lack of proper exposure on the process and behind-the-scenes of a pageant event.  A pageant is far more than just the grand finale evening where the finalists present themselves on stage in pretty dresses and perky performances.  

These are the basic activities of a pageant event before the grand finale (known as coronation night):

- Interview or introductory video submission 

- Selection of quarter final or semi final participants 

- Trainings and classes for semi-finalists

- Semi final event

- Selection of finalists

- More trainings and classes for finalists 

- Grooming and photoshoot sessions

- Social visits to selected charity or business institutions 

- Preliminary rounds for grand finale (ie. Talents section; Sports section; Community section; etc.)

After all of those activities (and maybe more for some pageants), comes the grand finale, where the finalists give their final shot at showing the judges and audience why they are the best among the best.  

Every wise person should know that a pageant queen is more than just a pretty face.  More than her outward appearance, a good pageant queen is also smart.  She is brave and kind.  She takes care of others as much as she takes care of herself.  Most of all, she wants a better world for everyone.  

That is not an easy responsibility to carry, but through the pageant title that is granted to the winners, along with the trainings and experiences given to the finalists, each of them can make a positive change within their community little by little.  Like a ripple effect, these collective small changes will grow bigger and spread to the rest of the world.

THAT is the true purpose of a pageant.  I wish more people would recognise that and provide more support to such notion.  

Stay safe!

Lessons & Reminders Through ‘Animal Crossing’

When adorable meets addictive, it’s a pretty lethal combination but in an endearing way.  Take this game - ‘Animal Crossing: New Horizons’ as my personal example.

Today, I’ve been playing it throughout the day (with breaks multiple times, thankfully) until I had to use my spare joystick while the other one is being charged.⠀

I realised that this game has been teaching me some useful lessons and reminders that can be applied in real life.

These are the fundamental reminders that I discovered while playing this adorable game.

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1. Surround yourself with people you can trust and treat them as your equal even if they’re different than you.

2. Appreciate and cooperate with the people who try their best to cater to your needs with patience.

3. Spend wisely and let go of unused items.

4. Listen and learn new things from those who have certain knowledge and skills.

5. Hustle up to gain your income for your future use.

6. Be open to adventures but stay cautious to a certain extent.

7. Be thankful and get excited when you receive surprises.

8. Take time to pause and see the beauty around you.

9. Have some time and space for yourself.

10. Celebrate achievements and give credits to the deserving ones.

11. At the end of the day, get some rest.

There you have it!

If you’re also playing this game, feel free to add to the list.

Baby Steps for Mama Earth

This month, we celebrated Earth Day on April 22nd.  It’s a yearly reminder for us to keep playing our part in keeping our earth clean and safe.

A huge factor that everyone should be thinking about when it comes to taking care of this earth is the sustainability of our actions.  This refers to what we can do best to protect this earth and how to be consistent about it for the long run.  This kind of effort requires the whole population (ideally) to do their part and make that extra effort whenever possible. 

It may be unfamiliar and unnatural at first, but keep making that effort for a healthier planet we call home.

I would love to know what you have been doing in playing your part, and I might get ideas or inspirations from you.  So, please share what you think are doable, beneficial ways for us to Go Green for Mother Earth.

Below are some of the small things I have been doing with pleasure as my personal ways of paying it forward for our earth.  I try to do these things as much as possible. Baby steps...

Use reusable shopping bags

Bring along metal straws (or choose paper straws)

Bring along reusable cutleries

Pack takeaway food or drinks in containers 

Sort aside recyclable items 

How I Pack for a 5D4N Trip

Travelling is pretty much everyone’s desire.  Hands down on that!  

Some people travel to have fun, some travel to take a break from their daily schedules, and some travel for work.  Whatever your reason is, travelling allows you to open up your eyes and mind to more possibilities as well as realities.  You get to learn new things and discover new knowledge.

For me, I mostly travel to take a good break from my day-to-day routine. I also travel to go home all the way to my hometown at the Borneo part of Malaysia, since I’m working at the Peninsular part of the country.

Whenever possible, I prefer to pack light but I also want to be sufficiently equipped with the essential things that I need when I’m away.  So, over the years, I learned to manage and adjust my packing style according to my personal needs.  

Here, I will share with you a glimpse of what (and how) I pack for my 5-day-4-night overseas trip.  If you find it to be useful for yourself, feel free to imitate and make your next travel more enjoyable and comfortable.

The trick to save up space for clothes is to roll them instead of fully folding them.


Put aside what you wish to wear to the airport.  Keep is simple and comfortable.


Don’t forget the items you need to use everyday. Your hotel or homestay might provide some of the items but it’s always recommended to bring your own travel packs.


Decide and delegate on what you need to bring in your smaller bag that you will carry with you all the time.


And there you go!

If you have a useful guide or tips of your own, please share it too!

Sorry I Acted Okay

Hey there!

I hope your days have been wonderful, or at least.....'okay'.  I mean it, I really hope that you're doing alright at least.  

Prologue - 17-July

In my case right now, I'm in a bubble.  And the wall of my bubble is wearing thin.  It is both agile (since I still manage to hold on day by day) yet fragile (since I'm also feeling really really really low on strength and willpower).  Don't worry, though.  I think I'll make it through this turbulence.  It's temporary.  To put it in a simple statement, though not explanatory enough - I'm tired.  Like....just tired.  A lot of my friends might not realise it yet because I'm trying to appear as the usual, optimistic me who believes that nothing can ever rain on my parade.  I still would like to think so but I suppose for now, this is a 'side effect' of my never-ending optimism (which I still refuse to give up on!).  

I will do this post in a timeline, diary-like structure, where I will update it a few times per day and keep saving it as a draft until the day it is published.  I'm giving myself about one week to get it together and feel better.  Day 1 starts today - 17-July-2017. 

Side note: If I really end up losing myself and then unable to or forget to publish this, someone (hopefully trusty) could still see it in my draft once my device gets hacked, right?  There's still hope. 

17-July

Here's something quite funny about this whole situation.  I'm almost convinced that I'll go medically insane sooner or later.  I denied it at first but I started to believe so after weeks of multifactorial stress-filled days.  That's why I'm writing this to let it out bit by bit, hoping that I will find my peace of mind again.  On the other flip of the coin, I'm not fond of getting other people involved with my crazy life when I don't want to bother them, thanks to my sense of pride.  And that's why I'm setting a timer for this post to be published in the near future instead of on the same day I start to write this.  Hopefully, by the time this is published, I will feel more like my jolly self again from the inside and this will become a little story that we can all learn from.

Ahh....I need to get ready for work soon.  I had a brief rest the weekend before but it definitely wasn't enough.  Maybe I'm just missing people, or missing home, or missing the general feeling of being carefree.  I'm used to juggling many things at one time.  I normally just wing it, you know.  This time, I'm doing things pretty much the same way with the same mindset.  But something seems different.  I can't figure it out yet, so it's driving me crazy!  This is random but one day recently, a friend of mine said to me "But you're already crazy." when I expressively blurted out that I felt like I was going crazy.  See....this is because a lot of the people who know me (if not all) have acknowledged that I'm a little less-than-normal by nature. 

After work (past midnight), I stopped by at a convenience store near my place to grab a drink and some tidbits.  I knew I wasn't going to be able to sleep right away, so I spent a good hour or so in the kitchen, indulging in the things I bought while watching some silly videos on YouTube.  I giggled at some point, so that's a relief.  At least I haven't lost my sense of humour.  As much as I enjoy getting updates on what the people I know are up to on social media, I logged off and deactivated my main social media sites - Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter.  I'm still on Whatsapp, Line, and Messenger, though, because those are the convenient ways my family back home or my close friends can reach out to me when they need to.  I also check my email inbox occasionally.  Other than that, I'm on social media hiatus.  By the time you read this, I'll probably be back on the mainstream social media sites.  We'll see.  

18-July

I have no memory of going to bed last night and waking up this morning to get ready for the day.  The next thing I knew, I was already in the office!  At work, my wonderful colleague and good friend buzzed me to ask if I was feeling any better.  She had an idea because I mentioned to her the day before that I was in distress due to the many things that are going on around me.  "Even Wonder Woman rests," she told me today.  She's such a kind soul.  I feel sorry for letting her know when I initially planned to let NO ONE know how overwhelming things have been.  **So sorry ㅠㅠ**  If I could take it back, I would.  But at that point of time, I was torn between telling a friend or talking to a psychiatrist (Yes, my brain is acting really weird even for a weirdo like me.).   My silly mind even thought of registering into a rehab centre.  I just kind of want to escape and take a break.  

I think my main problem is that I'm stubborn enough to want to juggle everything and keep juggling on my own.  I can't help it.  I've gotten so used to it that I might have reached my maximum capacity and should slow down a little but a part of me hasn't realised it.  No, no, that doesn't really make sense (As if I still have my senses.. LOL).  Maybe I realise it but my brain and my heart are currently conflicting each other, causing the rest of me to be lost and hanging by a string.  Gosh, I hate it when I'm hanging!  Well....today wasn't so bad.  But the mysterious feeling of misery hasn't left me.  Could this be some kind of a premature mid-life crisis or something?  We don't really have to be middle-aged to have it, right?  Right? 

19-July

I think I slept pretty well last night.  Rest-wise, it feels okay at this moment.  The bummer is that I woke up with a vague feeling of depression....as if my conscious mind was telling me "You're still not okay, girl~".  That's just cruel, isn't it?  I then literally sat up on my bed and told myself to breathe.  In all honesty, sometimes I forget to breathe.  Now, I'm sitting in the kitchen with my cup of coffee, updating this entry while dreading (a bit) to go through the rest of my routine for the day.  

As the day progresses, I think I feel more alive bit by bit.  I'm slowly becoming more like the usual me - even though no one knows for sure what the "usual me" really is since I'm quite tricky to be defined.  LOL  Maybe it's the fried chicken that I'm having right now that's making me feel better.  **Quick break time at the office**  Have I told anyone how much I love fried chicken?  Just like fries, fried chickens are heaven-sent!  My chatters and laughter feel more genuine today.  Baby steps~

The rest of the day went okay.  I'm in my kitchen now (again) after a bearable day at work.  I'm thinking.....should I deactivate my Messenger?  Since I'm not on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter at the moment, I might as well take a break from Messenger too.  My family can still get in touch via Whatsapp or text message or phone call.  But then....what about my friends who don't have my number?  And what about my international friends?  Is it really okay for me to disconnect from them?  I don't feel like it's fair.  My conscience won't let me.  I'm here for you guys if you need me, friends.  **Fists bump**  You can only see this once it's published.....but yea, I'll be here for you.  

20-July

I woke up earlier than usual this morning; earlier than my alarm.  Dad called, so I answered the phone and strangely after that, I didn't feel like going back to sleep.  So I got up.  I might regret this later on.  I put on my earphone and listened to the playlist on my phone as a perk-me-up before coffee - which could riskfully end up the other way around since my playlist contains a mixture of exciting and depressing songs.  Normally, I would be able to just feed on the energy of the exciting songs and appreciate the musicality of the depressing ones (for balance), but I'm afraid that's not the case at the moment since I'm not fully me.  I might turn into an emo creeper instead, which you do NOT want to see.  Hahaha...  The joke's on me for getting those songs in the first place!  Wait....now I feel a bit sleepy again.  Should I go back to sleep?  My work starts at 3 in the afternoon and it's only around 9:30 in the morning now.  Decisions, decisions... 

I ended up falling back to sleep for a bit more. LOL  I feel more energised now to get through the day.  Time for my love - coffee before work~  I've mentioned that I'm currently on Whatsapp, Line, and Messenger; Whatsapp for family and friends, Messenger for more friends, and Line for my alliance members from the game 'Evony' (I got trapped into this game and can't get out.).  I've been quite inactive in the game lately but I enter the game daily to get my rewards and re-bubble my castle to protect it from potential attacks.  I briefly caught up with some members of my alliance.  Oh boy, I miss talking to them!  We take care of one another, in the game and somehow in real life too.  We recently merged with another alliance and is now proudly known as Royal Union (used to be Royal Pain).   

I feel almost 50% myself, I think.  Argh....I still can't spill out exactly what have been bothering me and who are a part of it.  I'm sorry, I might drag this to my grave, even.  What if.....this is all because of some decisions I tactlessly made?  What if.....I'm making this bigger than it actually is?  What if.....I unknowingly broke my own self?  Okay, stop overthinking, P!

Oh my.....what a weird coincidence!  I'm catching up with my alliance members on Line before bed and they've been talking about being emotionally drained and shutting down from the society.  I jumped into the conversation and gave an instant prep talk to one of the members who has "pushed people away for so long, finding it hard to feel fit in anywhere".  "Slow and steady, one day at a time, cautious but optimistic has been working for me," stated another member.  Our Alliance Queen gave some wise words, "We are all misfits in some way.  Being different is normal."  Wow~ 

21-July

Hey, it's Friday...  That's one generally good thing to look forward to.  **BRB... Phone call**  Mom just called while I was writing this in the dining area at home.  I could hear my sisters in the background, getting hyped over a movie they were watching on TV.  **Not envious**  **Lying**  I'll see them in about a month.  Ready or not, sisss~ 

I'm starting to experience one of the obvious effects of not being on social media.  Even though it keeps me away from knowing more than I need or want to, it also keeps me uninformed of the real, major news.  Now, I would just find out stuff from my friends or colleagues through words-of-mouth.  Like today (a few minutes ago), one of the shocking news that I found out later than the general public was about the death of Chester from the band Linkin Park.  I literally grabbed my teammate's phone when he showed me a related Instagram post.  I traced through the hashtags and figured out that the singer hung himself to death.  ㅠㅠ  A part of me feels so sad and baffled by his action.....but another part kind of gets him, you know.  Humans are both strong and weak.  Let's not hurt each other and ourselves.  Never take anyone for granted no matter how much of a 'hassle' it might appear to simply ask someone "How are you doing?" or to tell them "Hang in there!" despite not knowing their full story yet.  I've been on both sides of the ropes, so believe me, it matters to care.  Today, work has been in between light to medium in weightage.  That's good.

My dear friend that I knew from a past pageant invited me to a bon odori event and a sleepover for the weekend.  I said okay because she has literally 'booked' me for that.  LOL  She was wondering why I didn't respond to her Facebook invitation for that event and I told her that I'm currently not on Facebook.  She was like..."Whyyy..?".  ^o^v  This Sunday, I will also be getting the keys to a condo unit my colleagues and I are renting for our office move to another town.  Yep, I'm moving!  I have to.  ㅠㅠ  Sometimes it feels like I'm on autopilot mode with all of the various things that are going on around me right now.

22-July

Hi Saturday!  Let's chill a bit before I get going with my friend's bon odori programme later this afternoon.  Ahh...I feel like I should re-visit my Japanese Language notes from my university days.  (Trivia: I studied beginner Japanese Language as an elective subject for two semesters in university.  I aced both semesters!  **Personal achievement unlocked**)  I glanced through my Whatsapp, Line, and Messenger to view the messages that I had not read yet.  I came across some familiar profiles including one that I used to talk to all the time about even the tiniest, most ridiculous subjects.  I don't really know why we stopped.  Believe it or not, I'm clueless.  Do I want to know, though?  That's one of the things that are silently killing me, to add to the list.  Just keep breathing and stay alive until we figure it out, 'aite.  Hate you~  

Wait...do we get reactivated on Facebook if we use Waze?  My account sure did.  I guess it's because I previously linked my Waze to my Facebook.  I checked my email and saw "Welcome back" from Facebook team.  I entered the website just to check if it's true and yep, I got reactivated.  I still need to use Waze for the weekend, so I'm just gonna have to stay away from the site while I'm at it.  Darn....I HAD to scroll down my news feed a little!  And you know how Facebook would selectively show you updates or posts by specific people even from a day ago or so, as if it cynically tells you "Look at this person!  You know you want to see if he/ she is still alive, happy or broken!"..  **Log off and force close website!**  Still kind of hate you~  For no reason~  Wait....what am I even talking about?  Okay, I'm confused.

Done with bon odori festival~  That was interesting!  I have always wanted to go to such cultural festival.  My friend and I even joined in the bon odori dance!  I made new friends today too.  After the festival, we had dinner, or more like supper, as a group of six at a Korean eatery place.  LOL...first, Japanese, then, Korean?  Such a heavy, filling meal!  I found out that my new friends are avid Japanese culture fans (like me) and a few are divers (like me too!).  It was really nice to get to know them and chat about whatever.  It helps to get my mind off certain things, you know.  And it's nice to make new friends (almost) randomly. 

23-July

Sunday breakfast with my friend~  We're having roti canai with fish curry and sugar.  Lovely!  Quick question - am I a bad person if I know that someone is awake in the morning and I want to casually wish "Good morning!" like I used to but decide not to?  Gosh, I don't understand myself!  At this rate, I don't know if I'm going to end my brief hiatus soon.  I might need to extend it to another week.  **Sigh**  The main problem is really just me, isn't it?  

Got the keys to my new residential place with my friends...yey!  I snapped and recorded some photos and videos these past few days.  I would love to share them with you guys but not yet, I guess.  Hey, here's an idea!  Maybe I will post them anytime in the future under the hashtag #whenIwasaway or #hiatusmisfit or #comefindme (Okay, this last one comes up because the song 'Lost Boy' by 5SOS is playing in my head right now.  The song has "Come find me.. Come find me.. Come find me.. Come find me.. 🎶" before the last chorus. LOL).  Should I go back to social media?  Or give myself more break time from it?  The virtual break time is somehow rejuvenating but I have to admit, I miss the social media butterfly side of me too, just a bit.  

I ended this weekend with some friends, watching a movie in 4D - the one with moving chair, blowing wind, squirting water, synthetical smell, and occasional butt massage.  It was interesting, but most of all, a good distraction even if only temporary.  You know what's frustrating to me right now?  One moment, I think I'm slowly but surely getting it together, the next moment, I just get the urge to feel miserable all over again.  Split personalities, huh?  Why doesn't it feel right?  Is there a message that I just don't get from all of this?  I thought I was feeling better, even just a little, but I'm starting to see that I don't quite get it yet.  Go figure!  

So.....I'm gonna publish this for now but remain under the radar for a bit.  I hate potentially seeing people I care about being less than okay, if any.  It makes me not okay too.  Come on now!  I know it's hard but let's get through this.  We have to.

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What makes this whole situation stranger is how much this song ('Funny' by the ever talented Tori Kelly) tells my same story, well, most part of it.  It has been popping out now and then on my shuffled playlist.  Ain't that funny...  

- https://youtu.be/h_OndcAuOvE 

I would play this song on a guitar and sing it but I haven't tuned my guitar that I got not too long ago, and the keyboard that I normally play is all the way at my hometown.  So.....maybe someday? 

My last (but not really last) words to you all - be careful how you play the game.. 🎶 

but don't get stressed out too much la~

Sending you lots of love and good vibes.. 🖤

Please don't keep it to yourself if things get too intense.  I have this blog to slowly pour it out to.  If you have no one else to turn to, come talk to me.  I mean it.  

Hang in there, Doves!

I have a number of posts in my draft, waiting to be completed and published. They are long overdue (Sorry, guilty of procrastination and writer's block phase!) but I feel like I need to get this particular one out first for one reason - I want you to hold on to your last bits of hope and strength no matter what you are going through.

You see, everyone is fighting a battle that others aren't always able to notice.  It's just a matter of time for us to see the outcome and let's hope the outcome is a good, bearable one.  

So, if you're having a tough time trying to figure out what's next and what's best, breathe and read on.

Please, please, please know the following: - 

(i) You're not as alone as you sometimes (or always) feel.

You like your own space and prefer to stay there, away from distractions and disturbances, I get it.  I do too.  But every now and then, let's open up a bit and allow others to have a glance at what we're up to, okay?  You don't have to reveal everything to everyone.  It's enough to let some people know how you are feeling or what you wish to achieve.  I know some of you trust nobody and I don't blame you - some humans are destructive in their words and actions; they can't help it.  But at the end of the day, there are people in your life who want to see you do well.  Could be your family member, could be your friend, could be your new acquaintance....  Open up your eyes.  At least don't shut them out of your circle completely without even justifying it, you know.  Don't make it harder for them too.

(ii) It's a waiting game.

Patience is a virtue, they say.  Some things require you to wait and keep waiting.  You can only do your part, which includes putting an effort to what you believe in.  I don't know how yet but even at this point of time, the universe is aligning its elements to help unfold your paths towards what is meant for you.  Each person has his or her own 'fate clock', as I would call it.  LOL ^^ Your time will come.  Just don't give up yet.  

(iii) Use the power of your mind.

Your mind is a powerful thing; use it.  This is more than just using your brain, which is mostly technical and logical.  Using your mind incorporates a more abstract side of human thoughts.  If you think and believe that you can, then you can.  I must warn you, though, that you might get tired of thinking and believing after some time.  That's part of the catch - a lot of things may come around to attempt to break you.  Please don't fall prey to these annoyances.  If you want to feel sulky sometimes, go ahead.  Just don't stay that way too long.  Cheer up and fight on, soldier!

(iv) Put your Past, Present, and Future where they belong.

Learn from your Past but don't dwell in it.  Make the best out of your Present but don't put too much pressure on it.  Invest in your Future but don't take away its flexibility.  'Nuff said! LOL  Seriously, though.

(v) Keep the faith! 

I really hope that you keep holding on and march forward.  Choose to be happy!  Or whichever not-so-negative emotion you want for that matter.

Lastly, I dedicate this beautiful song to us!  Listen to it!

'City Dove' (Tori Kelly)

https://youtu.be/YJDPE1UhXAk

Don't know what it's all about

But every time I look around

All I see is how we're holdin' on
Don't ask me what's wrong or right
I don't even know the time
All I know is I'm holdin' on

I haven't figured anything out

I haven't figured anything anything anything out

City dove, fly between the buildings and fences

Soft inside but rough on the edges

Waiting here for something to come, just holdin' on
City dove, fly between the stars and the headlights
Passin' by the clouds and the street signs
Knowing that there's something to come, just holdin' on

I don't really know my fate

I just know I'm on my way

There will be mistakes, movin' on
I try to get to the heart of it
Fly low but lookin' for Heaven
I know, I know I'm holding on

I won't figure everything out

I'll never figure everything everything everything out

City dove, fly between the buildings and fences

Soft inside but rough on the edges

Waiting here for something to come, just holdin' on
City dove, fly between the stars and the headlights
Passin' by the clouds and the street signs
Knowing that there's something to come, just holdin' on

Waiting here for something to come, just holdin' on
Fly between the stars and the headlights
Passin' by the clouds and the street signs
Knowing that there's something to come, just holdin' on