I SERIOUSLY Didn't Want to Do It...Seriously..

Yes I know I'm not perfect.

(msh bole jg bh jd mantap wpun not perfect. rilek..)

I feel so uneasy right now. Geram!!!!!!!!! I've tried to point out my intention and explain but noooo..still nothing better has been done about it. STOP DEPENDING ON ME (too much)!!! The harder part is, we're friends (but note that we're not exactly "such close friends". Prasan gila dia ni.) So, don't push it. I have a lot on my mind. I didn't ask for things to be so complicated suddenly but they just are, ok. So, don't simply drag me into stuff just because you THINK you really believe in my abilities. If the situation were different than this, I'd be flattered, really. Such a pity. Thanks for thinking so but hey, have you looked around? I'm not the only existing person, you know. Give me a break, please. Please la.. Tk phm2 pla..adei... I hate to lose my faith in a friend, ever, even when I'm being tested for it. Please don't make me, ok. Please... ~.~

Even at this moment, I still plan to be intentionally ignorant about it. Just slightly. I need to, ok. For the sake of my poor self. The situation forced me to be a little hypocritical. Why? Because I didn't completely tell how I really really really felt. I did try to..but SOMEONE DIDN'T GET IT. Sngaja ka? A simple thing has become so complicated. *sigh* Benci btl.

So, forgive me for what I've been doing and what I'm about to do. You'll see why..I hope. But don't worry..it's not that I'm going to commit a crime or anything. I just can't take it anymore. Honestly.....you've ruined my should-have-been-just-fine days, my friend. That kind of sucks. But I'll manage.

And I thank God for sending me many other good friends. At least I have them too. My kawaii ^^ friends. You rock!!

And God, continue to bless and guide us all.


bsok (or ari ni ka sdh), sy temankn JJ la pgi main cmpus utk Aidilfitri pnya bnda. cun2 jg aktiviti tu ari yg sma dgn apa yg sy tgh bingungkn ni. timing pn lbh kurg. makin tmbh ssh ni.

oh ya kn...kna htr adik lg pgi skolah. jgn la lecture hbs lmbt sgt. pharmaco o... then, tkut tk terbgun pla sb sy stat lmbt ckt dr besa. jd, yg lain dh jln dr rumah awal lg. rajin2kn la bgunkn sy k. but not too early, pls.

n omg...ada patho tutorial!!! uii...mo revise hbs lg ni. adui...adui...