Quoting the chorus of BTOB's 'Secret (Insane)', ♪♫ You make me go insane.. You give me so much PAIN..
That was pretty much how I've been feeling these past few days. It's a physiological matter, though. So, I couldn't have avoided it no matter how much I wanted to.
Before you get the wrong idea and freak out, thinking that I'm really going insane due to having to deal with so much pain, let me clarify it.
Since Monday morning, I've been having abdominal cramps at my lower abdomen. At first, it didn't really bother me because I thought it was just the time of the month (which should be kind of strange since I've just had it literally two weeks ago). As the sullen Monday morning went on and I was in the middle of one of my classes, the cramping felt more intense and lasting. It made me feel so uncomfortable that I decided not to attend the afternoon class. When I got home, I rested at the couch for a while. Ironically, lying down made me feel more uncomfortable. So, I kept changing my position but it came to no avail. I started to worry.....not due to the fact that I'm in physical pain, but I was worried that I might not be able to get my piling assignments and mid-term revisions done. *Sigh* Life is hard, you know. I had several glasses of warm water with the hope that the warmth would make my abdominal muscles more relaxed, resulting in less pain. Sadly, I couldn't feel any changes, or even if that helped a little bit, I might not have noticed it because the pain was just too distracting. So, the rest of the day went on with me battling against the cramps that I kept thinking would go away voluntarily. It was already night time and I wasn't feeling any better. Earlier on, when I was texting a friend (or was it a family member?), I faced a difficulty because my hands were slightly shaking. Must be the pain. It was frustrating. I decided to call it a day even though the night was still young (in my normal personal time zone) since there was nothing much that I could do even if I stayed awake. Before hitting my lovely bed, I consumed Panadol Menstrual, pink-coloured pain killer pills that were readily available in the fridge. I wasn't sure if taking up those pills would ease the pain, but I thought why not. After that, I went to bed.....but I didn't really sleep. I couldn't! As mentioned earlier, I felt more uncomfortable when lying down. How was I supposed to rest if I couldn't even lie down?!! I kept moving here and there to find a close-to-comfortable position. At one point, I found that sitting on the floor with my head on the bed (like it's a table) was more comfortable than lying on the bed itself.
In the morning, I woke up from my not-really sleep and went downstairs at around 5. The first thing I did was taking up more pain killers. No worries, I didn't over-consume them by exceeding the suggested dosage. After that, I went back to bed because it wasn't my turn to take bath and get ready yet. Time passed by and I couldn't even get up because of the cramps. I then informed my friends that I would be staying at home for that day (yesterday). Yesterday went on pretty much the same as the day before. I couldn't do anything productive and was struggling with the feeling of discomfort and pain that came around uninvited every now and then. If it were a person, I would totally condemn it and curse it with words that I don't even understand. Sorry, it wasn't me, it was my painful soul talking (or writing?). I had a warm glass of Milo to comfort my tummy. Even though it was temporary, at least it worked for that moment.
This morning, I was determined to attend the class. It was just one class, anyway. I felt a little better. To make sure that I wouldn't be bothered off-guard by the cramps (Imagine getting cramps attack while driving....not fun!), I took a couple of pain killers after my light breakfast. I managed to go through the morning with just slight feeling of heaviness and aching in my abdomen. Now I'm home. I'm starting to feel that the effect of the pain killers is wearing off bit by bit. Please don't make me take up more~ I have mid-term tests and assignments to get done this week! Have mercy~
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