A Book on My Life...

right???..

i should totally write a book based on my life. it would be a hit (i hope)!

my life is a drama~ a non-Hollywood kind of drama. or is there another word to describe it? maybe an Asian version of a drama. you know, the non-vulgar but filled with twists kind. then, i can turn it into a movie. how awesome would that be? :D

oh BTW, i sort of decided not to even try to retain my place in the (previous) course i used to be in. i actually needed 2% more marks. but i didn't. well, here's the reason behind it...

a small part of me wanted to give re-checking a try. but i kept in mind that it wouldn't make a difference in the end. i just knew it. plus, i was mentally exhausted that i REALLY REALLY didn't feel like doing anything. my energy was totally drained out. you don't know how it feels like unless you experience it yourself. ne? hontou ni.

then, another part of me just wanted to get things over with. honestly, i've been struggling. i enjoyed some part of it but...it was very tough for me. there were times when i thought "i dont want this anymore.", "this is so not good.", "i have to live like this?", or "yameru yo. onegai!". yes it's true. but hey, i did try. i didn't want to put people's hopes down, though. i hate doing that. and just FYI, the thing that makes going away harder is the great people i've met. (but some are kind of -.- ... you know. *sigh* but people are people.) i just want to move on. so, let me.

i'm grateful, though. at least i still have "my Storm". as crazy as it sounds, i do love them that much. one thing is for sure. whatever happens in my life...good or bad...please...please..don't take them away from me. onegai~

so, yeah...things will be alright. let's hope and pray so. now, i just hope that i'll live up to my original personality...outgoing, random, free... ^^v (just like Arashi's upcoming single, "To be Free". oh i listened to the preview of the song. it's great!)

most importantly, always remember that God has great plans for us. He does. He won't allow just anything to happen without a reason. :) so, stay strong! kitto daijoubu kara. owanai yo.

i couldn't agree more. ;)