Movie with Family

we impulsively decided to go out and watch a movie at the cinema in the evening. well, almost impulsively. it was originally planned to be on this Sunday, but apparently, we brought it forward. i had Nightmare on Elm Street in mind. but i had second thoughts when i remembered that my 6-year-old cousin was going to follow too. and guess what, it turned out that the cinema really cares about movie ratings. so, 18SG movies are only for 18-year-old's and above. they don't provide tickets for those under that age. so, even my youngest sister can't watch it. wait, also my other younger sister...techniquely.

so, while waiting for the others to arrive ("the others" consisted of my 2 uncles, my aunt, my grandma, and my little cousin.), we went to check for the showtimes and ticket pricing. THAT was when we found out about the movie rating thingy. i personally think that it's a good thing, though. Film Censorship Board exists for a reason. also, i don't really mind if some movies are rated for certain age groups only since i'm no longer a minor. :p so, when the rest finally arrived and joined us 5 ("us 5" would include my dad, my mom, my 2 sisters, and me.), we tried to decide which movie to watch.

in the end, we watched.....

it's about a mix-bred dog who often feels like an outcast, just like a teenage boy, who tries to fit in when the family moves to a new place (Orange County, California).

i couldn't use my membership card to purchase the tickets. apparently, the amount limit per purchase (per day, i think) is 6 tickets max. so, we couldn't get the RM1 discount per ticket. uh...whatev~

the movie was fun. a good family comedy. it was just that it was chilling in the theater and i felt a little sleepy towards the end. not forgetting, hungry. we hadn't had our dinner. :(

our other considerations were:

i really wanted to watch this one. just to see of it's as good as the other versions. even my mom wanted to watch this. though...i think it may be the same as the other one i watched. it was about Freddy, the unhappy murdered victim that haunts the sons/ daughters of his murderers in their sleep.

my uncle reviewed that this isn't a good movie. so i cancelled every intention of wanting to watch it.

Keep the Faith!

i haven't been listening to KAT-TUN or any other Johnny's apart from Arashi for quite some time.

just want to post this great song by KAT-TUN. it's called "Keep the Faith". i love the message, and it's the theme song for Yukan Club, one of my favourite J-dramas ever.

(not a new song, not a new drama, FYI)

Nothing Feels Worth Fighting for When the Spirit's Gone

my feelings right now?.... bumped, uncertain, pissed, annoyed, tired~

my thoughts right now?.... confused, undecided, tangled, unstable, (also) tired~

i need to make a decision!

and it's something very important. i was never taught on how to make good choices when i ever need to turn my life's direction around. don't get me wrong, though. medicine's great but it's just not for me. (i'm talking about the university course medicine, not the prescriptive medicine. in case you didn't know what this is about.) it's not the subjects or the program that i'm having trouble with, it's the lifestyle. as the student, and potentially as the professional later. i'm just the out-going, fun-loving, and free-spirited kind. *nod* oh yeah..believe it. i CAN stand medicine-related studying for a period of time, but NOT for a very long time. in fact, i once almost cried while reading too much medical stuff. haha...i know, sounds over-dramatic. but it's true. but i kept going anyway. the main reason was I DIDN'T WANT TO LET ANYONE DOWN. breaking people's hearts feels worse than breaking my own, that's how i see it.

so, below are the (not many) options i have now if i were to stay in the same university, but a different course:

(1)

THE TYPICAL CHOICE: resource biotechnology

why it may be OK: because it's biology (plus technology), and biological science is the subject i've been mostly exposed to since school and matriculation.

why it may be BAD: i don't like lab works. in fact, i think i hate them!

(2)

THE NEXT TYPICAL CHOICE: resource chemistry

why it may be OK: also, because it's science.

why it may be BAD: right...chemistry. i wonder if my head can withstand the chemistry terms without exploding. and again, i don't like lab works. and the prospect doesn't seem so promising too.

(3)

THE UNEXPECTED CHOICE: economics (or international economics)

why it may be OK: i secretly have this dream of having a business of some sort someday. i know it will take some time, though. not forgetting skills and risk-taking.

why it may be BAD: i've always been a science-based student. (but i did learn accountancy in school. can that make it ok?)

(4)

THE OTHER CHOICE: .......anything else, probably education or counselling or TESL?? (o.o)

ah..i can't think anymore!

DARE KA, DARE MO, TASUKETE!!! anata ga iru itai daiyo~

Kami sama...doushiyou na??? shirenai yo.

To Be Free??

let's forget for a while the fact that my future career isn't determined yet. yeah i can be pretty indecisive sometimes. go figure! but i'll keep my faith and know that i'll find my way eventually (but it better be soon enough).

OK! now onto the fun side of life.....guess what? you know (or you don't) that Arashi's 30th single entitled "Monster" was released on May 19th. and it was a hit! i love it! so i read a recent update on this amazing 5-bunch, and found out that they'll be releasing their 31st single on July 7th!!! that's very soon! is it even possible??? in less than 2 months, can 2 singles be released consecutively?? and rest assure, the 31st single is going to be goooooood as well. it has a catchy pop tune, i heard. i haven't listened to the preview yet. WOW! they just keep it coming.

2 singles in 2 months??? *i'm still in the state of disbelief* oh..the title of the upcoming single is "To Be Free".

here is Arashi~

aren't they lovely? *starstruck*

and you know what? it just hit me...maybe this is some kind of a sign. i mean, the title itself is "To Be Free", so i have this crazy thought telling me that maybe it's time for me "to be free" from something i've been in all this while. maybe i am meant to not move on with this path and "to be free" from what's not meant for me.

the thing is...as i got myself into it from the beginning, i grew fonder towards it. i came to really like the field, even when it's SUPER challenging. also, for some reasons -.-", quite a number of people (e.g. relatives, family friends, former schoolmates) actually knew what field i've been pursuing. and they kept on mentioning it every time we met. well, it's nice but i'm not the kind of person who loves to let the whole world know every detail about me for no reason. i'm just not. but if they HAPPEN to find out, that's another story.

well, anyway...we'll see where i'll end up at. i'm sure i'll be fine. God, continue to be with me and keep me on the right path.

...............

back to the better news, YAY for the highly anticipated single release form my ever favourite J-pop group, "the Storm"! ^o^v

hmm...to be free...

p/s: i'll explain in a bit more details on the future career changing decision in the coming post. maybe the next one.

How My Body Deals with Depression

ok...so i ALWAYS feel nervous or anxious whenever exam is over. yes, it's when it's over, not so much when it's going on. of course, it would be because of the upcoming result. and mind you, medicine exams (and quizzes) are NEVER EASY! i repeat, NEVER EASY! there are times when they are alright but many many many times, they are potentially heart-stopping.

HOWEVER... i know that, to some top medical students, it's a whole different story. to them, it's usually rather easy. the only reason they complain after an exam would be because they thought they wouldn't manage to get an A or A-. (-.-)" but i love them, though. (just a friendly figure of speech..) since we're friends. but seriously...it can get a little annoying. i mean, can't you see those who are not as mathematical-logically intelligent as you are?! people vary in terms of their skills and intelligences, ok. there are...how many...eight..nine..types of intelligences in this world. so, be considerate. i know sometimes, you can't help it but just try.

so back to my post!

recently, i've been sleeping or napping without caring what time of the day it is. i just continue to doze off. it's like i'd rather stay in the imaginative dreamland, than to face reality. fear of the unknown builds up. poor heart of mine...i could totally feel it pumping in a tachycardiac manner. i'm lucky that i have a strong heart. :) and all the sleeping pass mealtimes or TV-times or chit-chatting times went on for more than a day.

SO THE CONCLUSION IS.....my body reacts to depressing situations by going into hibernation mode. it shuts down temporarily. as if it doesn't care anymore about what's going on around. please note that depression isn't similar to stress in this case. stress is before and during a particular event.

p/s: this was supposed to be posted several days ago but i was still heavily nurturing myself back to real world at that time.

Why I Can't Decide Whether My Favourite Day is Friday or Sunday

first, let's take a look at Friday. i mean...the TGIF feeling is just great! weekend is the time we have a little break. not only us, our family members and friends do too. so, EVERYONE looks forward to weekends. at least, everyone should. and so.....obvious enough, Friday is the beginning of a weekend. so it's the beginning of something good that we look forward to. we get to relax (maybe just a little bit, sometimes) and catch up with the less stressful things in our life.

then, there's Sunday. yes, Sunday is the last day in a weekend. and after Sunday, it will be Monday :(, the much despised day by most people. but why is it that i consider Sunday as a potential favourite day of mine? simple! because every Sunday morning, we go to the church. (i'm a Catholic, BTW.) i kind of enjoy getting ready for church. after taking my bath, i pick which outfits i am going to wear. then, i get my hair done. typical girl stuff, i know... then, being in the church can give a soothing feeling. you're more connected to The Creator spiritually. after church, my family and i usually eat out. we occasionally shop a little.

so.....from what i've stated above, it seems that the reason i can't decide between those two days is because they both give me strong reasons to feel good about life, in their simplest ways.

After 3 Months Being 'Frozen'...

...my blog is about to be 'defrosted' again.

:::balloons flying up with ribbons coming down:::

trust me, there are MAJORLY BLOG-WORTHY things that had happened. but i'll start later.

and i'm okay! ^^v i really am. and i have my reasons for that. will give you a scoop on that later.

peace! xoxo

p/s: sorry for the phone calls that i haven't been answering and text messages that i haven't been replying to. there are various reasons to that. :) i just wanted to gather my thoughts and words to avoid being confusing.